Work is still very challenging. It's been hard to be the man I want to be and successfully navigate all of my responsibilities. Being in charge of making financial decisions, especially when most decisions directly affect lives, is difficult work. I've had to say "no" a lot lately due to a lack of financial resources, and every time I do I have another person who doesn't like me. Professional and personal relationships here are so intertwined that there is virtually no distinction between the two--at least from my experiences. In the States I've mostly enjoyed being someone who is respected and I've always been able to establish good working relationships with my coworkers. So the situation I find myself in currently is uncharted territory for me. All of the need and negativity leaves me exhausted, discouraged, and discontent. I have to find a way to break free of this path, because I know I can't withstand it for much longer. I've been getting sick a lot lately too, which only adds to the hardships. As much as I wish I only had good things to share I thought I needed to be real and transparent with you all.
Thanksgiving is next week. I won't be spending the holidays at home for the first time in my life. I'm thankful that I do have friends and a fiance/wife to spend the holidays with, but the season will definitely be missing something without all of the other great people that I have shared most of my life with. I'm sure I will feel some homesickness at times. On a positive note I don't have to experience the cold! That's one thing that can put a smile on my face ;)
Please pray for my upcoming wedding and marriage. Also, pray for Christian Light School and Children's Home. Thank you to those who have remained faithful in supporting me in Haiti!
